i think i love him, definitely. yes. of course.

is it true that dating a pureblood capricorn is very very daunting and painful for a leo like me?

guess it's true.

the key is; keep on waiting waiting waiting.


i am the impatient type of person. and most of all, i will get whatever the hell i want, easily. and he is revoking this fact, wholly. he turned the table on me like had never been done before. i must admit, dear bloggie that my first entry was a bit..... harsh and stupid-like. i shouldn't be dwelling in the past for too long. it is not good for me.

ANYHOW.

in this game, he is the bitch. not me. and when i typed the word bitch, it means that he is the one who intrigues me, he is the one who keep on egging me to hunt him on and on. damn him. he made me work so hard, and still doing so. a lot of people want me to let go of him now; they said i am better off with another one. and i almost thought that i should, too.

but something dawns to me; kira-sama is a VERY hard habit for me to break. very hard. he is very addicting, and something about him sucks me in. i don't whether it is his personality or his attitude or whatever but hey, he attracts me like lights who attract moths. i am the moth, sadly.

of course i later figure why he is sucha hard habit to break. he is rare for a man. very rare and hard to find. i have waited for three goddamn years for him to fall into my arms. and i am not going to let this three months wait to dampen and shorten my relationship with him.

and of course bloggie, the last time i ever saw his face was three years ago and the last time i talked to him was about a month or so ago. he is a challenger. i hate him for that. his question:

how can you make me love you even more?

what the hell? no guy i ever hunted ever asked me such  a question. for a second, i felt as if i was insulted directly by him and i feel like as if i wanna clasp his face and start yelling all the offensive stuffs that i used to throw at my persistent stalkers.

he should be thanking his star for the fact that i love him more than i ever love another man before him. hence, that's the only reason why i have been bending to his rule and will all this while. i let it go, i even bleed myself profusely in the process. but it is all worth it

though i need to wait for a bit more. but it will be alright. i will face it boldly